I just did something CrAzY

I did something absolutely crazy today! Oh man. I guess I should start from the beginning.

So there is this girl. Her name is Rachel. She has a problem with me, but I have no idea what I ever did. All I ever do is say hello to her. It makes it worse because she is my neighbor so I see her all the time, but she refuses to make eye contact or say hello in return. I know this isn't just her personality because when I met her at the start, she was very friendly and seemed very excited to meet me. She even invited me to walk with her to church so she could show me how to get there. (She never followed through though even when I asked her in person...which should have been my first sign that I offended her or something, but I digress...) After that, she started avoiding me at all costs. I thought maybe she simply had a small soul...but she had a big soul around other people! I sat next to her in church and then she moved. I sat near her in choir and she moved. I sat next to her in this stake choir performance and she moved. I say hello to her and she looks the other way. It didn't matter to me at first, but now I just feel really terrible and wonder what I did. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but it is kind of offensive now. And this girl who I met who was super nice is now friends with Rachel and won't talk to me either. And this girl is so mean about it - at least Rachel is good at pretending she doesn't see me... She doesn't even try to hide that she dislikes me. All I know about her is her name!! How could she possibly hate me that much already?! I always always always try to smile at them and just say a simple hello, but it is always in vain.

Well, I hit my last straw tonight. I walked into the cafeteria and Rachel left, which I am sure had nothing to do with me, it is just a delicious cherry on top of one of those days, then when I was going back to my room, I opened the door and saw a girl in a hurry. It was Rachel's rude friend and I held the door wide open for her without hesitation. She looked straight ahead and didn't even acknowledge my existence with that same "I am pretending you aren't human" look. Is it too much to ask for a thank you for holding the door for you while you were obviously in a hurry? I didn't say hello this time, so that should have required a thank you, too!!  I know it must seem as if I am overreacting, but this has been going on since school started. I just don't know what to do.

I take it back. I do know what to do. And I did it. I did something crazy! I wrote Rachel a note! Ah! Crazy, huh?? And it looked something like this:

I did not sign my name, because that would be a bit weird. It is comforting to me that no matter what she does at this point, no matter how rude her and her friends are to me, I helped her to have a good day without her even knowing it. It is much better than treating her the same way she treats me--that is childish. I have no idea what is going on in her life so I cannot judge why she immediately walks the other direction when she sees me (yes, that happens, too). But she is missing out on a great smile everyday! So hopefully that will make up for whatever I possibly could have done in the first few moments of meeting her.